This Is The Rain

by Julz Evans

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released October 14, 2014

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Track Name: Nothing's Enough
I think this deck has been shuffled so much now
The cards are almost back to where they were
And I'll sit here holding them while you sleep
And the sun reminds me of where we were

But I could do this for hours longer
I'm not going back, not going back to sleep
And your eyes they're beautiful when they open
That is enough to wait for

Well I guess my body was so filled up with
The words that I need to sing
That I tried to swim in that water ice cold
But the floating feeling, it seemed more like sinking

I could've stayed there for hours longer
As my tears froze, tears froze on my cheeks
And my eyes were difficult just to keep open
You know I'll never go back there

I'll watch these blank TV screens
(next to you but so alone)
Tell me please what she means to you
(you don't have to answer me)
We'll stay out late, watch these days fade away
As I wait for nothing
(won't you just throw me a bone as I wait for nothing)
Nothing's enough

I'll keep breathing, see me reading so much
(screaming out and grinding my teeth)
Don't feel the need to change for me
(don't ever change for me)
But time will find a worthy line
(I'll be OK)
To blind our minds from conscious

I could've stayed there for hours longer
I'm not going back, tears froze on my cheeks
And your eyes are beautiful when they open
That is enough to wait for

I could do this for hours longer
My tears froze, I'm not going back to sleep
And my eyes were difficult just to keep open
You know I'll never go back there
Nothing's enough to hold on to
Track Name: Locked Out
If you raise it, I'll call it
But my mouth is shut as far as it can go
Heart racing, I'm coming
Well you won't draw much blood from this stone
I've tasted, now I want in

You benefit my doubt
You try to bring me out
And I won't answer your questions
But I do want you around
I want you around

I can see you flying
But my shoes have glued themselves right to the ground
And I have been trying
And I've got all the instructions written down
On my feet, just waiting

You benefit my doubt
You try to bring me out
And I won't answer your questions
But I do want you around
When you are here with me
I feel like I get lifted
And I wish that I could stay here
Alone without drifting

Off course, but of course I do
Drifting off course, but of course I will
Track Name: Before I Eat Them
When you can't take any more
And you fall to my floor
And as you cling for dear life to these tired legs of mine
I will stare, of course I care

As I feel your body shake
And your spine bend and break
As your tears escape seal I forget how that feels
I'm elsewhere, but I swear

I'll be long gone
But I promise not to hold on
And I will pledge through song
That I will not be present
I'll reteach you a lesson
About becoming dependent on me

And I will stand beside the fact that I'll still
Play with my words before I eat them
And I'll be damned if I will ever like their taste
But I'll still repeat them

When you are broken and bruised
With only me left to lose
As I turn, walk away, you will hear me say
Now I know, well I told you so

As you pick yourself back up
Know I'll never call your bluff
You're still just as you were: a sad, lost little girl
Off you go and I'm slow

You'll be long gone
But I promise not to hold on
And I will pledge through song
That I will not be pleasant
You will not get my blessin'
And you sure as hell won't get to see me

And I will stand beside the fact that I'll still
Play with my words before I eat them
And I'll be damned if I will ever like their taste
But I'll still repeat them

Thanking me for doing half the job was your kiss of death
Until you're free I'd rather dwell on the past
Than come back just yet

I will write 200 songs
About the same thing if I want
But you will never hear them all, there will always be a wall
I miss us, and I miss our past
Track Name: This Is The Rain
Let's fly back to La-La Land
Where everything was easy
And everything felt like a dream
Because the smell of your Georgio
And of my breakfast triggers memories
Of a worriless time
When it was just us
And we didn't bother with anyone else
'cos nobody else was trying to hurt us
This is the rain

My dad he used to say
He says when it's raining you should always train
'cos that's when the other team is lazy
Then you beat them that week
You get better and they get worse
Well anyway, this is the rain

When we met I was so intrigued
By your honest way of thinking
And your frank and naked mind
Now your body has been stripped to the bone
Pushed past limits by those closest to you
And I see you floored, injured, in pain

But I also see your flaws disappearing
Your body in its most editable state
Oh my darling this is the rain
You will be stronger than ever
This is why we're better than them
This is why we're better than them

This is the rain
Track Name: Don't Ever Jump
I sold up and signed that dotted line
It wasn’t a contract, but in my mind
It was enrolment to everything I needed
It was commitment to everything I never wanted

But I followed you out onto that bridge
I balanced along that ledge with you

When you threw your weight over the edge
I exhausted every last bit of strength
To hold you down, to hold you down
I had nothing left, my energy was spent
My body aching, breaking and dripping in sweat
You were slipping out of my arms
you were slipping

The silence after that violent storm
Left us sitting there bruised and torn
And then a hug was everything I ever needed
And then a kiss was everything I never wanted

Just don’t ever jump
Please tell me you won’t
Say you give up
It’s too far to jump
Just don’t ever jump, don’t ever crash
Don’t ever hurt yourself, it’s too far to jump

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